I just feel like imprisoning myself at home and get away from the world outside.But when I'm at home, I get nagged at for even the slightest things like bathing late, sleeping late, skipping breakfast etc. Sometimes I'd wake up at 11 and my parents think I woke up at 2.30 cos I didn't show my face downstairs. I simply couldn't be bothered to make any form of explanation, since they've already found me guilty of such heinous crimes.

Probably when my elder bro comes back from aust today they'll stop "showering" so much attention on me.

If you're leading a happy life now and don't wish to get yourself affected by my entries, I advise you not to read my blog for this period of time. I feel very grouchy nowadays, and I just know it's because my quiet time has been super lousy.

And then you'll think: everyone has his/her ups and downs. I totally agree, so just don't bother about me. Just pray I'll stop this idiotic nonsense.

Psalm 77
I cried out to God with my voice-
To God with my voice;
And He gave ear to me.
In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord;
My hand was stretched out in the night without ceasing;
My soul refused to be comforted.
I remembered God, and was troubled;
I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed.

You hold my eyelids open;
I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
I have considered the days of old,
The years of ancient times.
I call to rememberance my song in the night;
I meditate within my heart,
And my spirit makes diligent search.

Will the Lord cast off forever?
Will He be favourable no more?
Has His mercy ceased forever?
Has His promise failed forevermore?
Has God forgotten to be gracious?
Has He in anger shut up His tender mercies?

Dear God, if this is a test for me to overcome my anguish and to surrender the greatest sins of my life, I pray you will not forsake me in such trying times.